Thank you for your continued support and for checking my blog.  I can't keep up with it for the time being I'm experiencing severe anxiety because of the effects of this awful disease.  I am not able to do      very much in my day which is making me very anxious, annoyed, and if I'm honest - angry.  My abdomen continues to grow and I struggle with thoughts of what may be ahead of me.  Its quite common to have your stomach drained in hospital if there is a build up of too much fluid.  Cancer is rotten, I hate having it.....

Happy Birthday Jessica Nadine.  I hope your weekend is special.  I love you so very much my girl.  You are a treasure...

Happy Birthday lovely Jasmine, 3 today.  I'm so glad you had a fun filled day with lots of nice presents, friends and family.  I hope you had a great time at Cheeky Monkeys.  I enjoyed our meal with you later on, you looked like a real Princess!

I love you so, always remember that my sweet Granddaughter,......
Nannie xx

I cherish my family, they are so important to me. I'm learning to lean on them and ask for help when I need it too. I find this whole stage of cancer difficult to get through, I need help more and more because I feel fatigued most of the time. Simple tasks drain my energy levels. I'm trying to get through feeling very sad that my health has deteriorated. Its not something I can just get over quickly, the whole process of these dramatic changes is having an effect on me now.

The sun shines again today, it's lovely, but I feel nervous and anxious most of the time unless I'm distracted. Most things I attempt to do tire me out more and more, I watch others do things and struggle with the enormity of what I'm going through. Mentally it's hard, physically it's hard and emotionally it's hard. My tummy and abdomen keep growing as the tumours grow and make my bodily functions in that area more difficult. Please, if in doubt of your health, get checked out. Don't delay.

I just lost my latest blog which happens from time to time when I use our iPad! I did save it though! My blogs will be quite short until I start using the laptop again. Since we moved I've not seen it, so it could be a while, or maybe I should just get used to this iPad! I was mainly talking about vomiting again today so it was probably a good one to loose!

I found the post afterall

This morning I vomited after my breakfast. I'd also taken all my morning tablets. I've not been sick for two days so had been doing ok. I've a lot of tablets to take in one day. Not having these drugs in my system can start me off on a vicious circle of trying to deal with symptoms when I can't hold down my prescribed medications. Frustrating to say the least. The anxiety I've been experiencing has been alright today, which has given me a sense of welcome relief. Moving house is stressful enough without dealing with it when you are sick.